Tears Of Pain

Its all in a silent tear....which makes its way down....clenching the heart gripped in pain and unbearable agony...when night comes...and everything is calm..with no one around....it comes out from it hiding place bringing with it the first sense of being alive...it hurts! It hurts damn bad...drowning in the bottomless pit of agony i let my tears purge me...to cleanse my soul of all the wrongs done to me...i swear a thousand promises and a thousand more...but i succumb time after time...despite knowing the fate...and when the tears put up an appearance i know i have failed yet again...hurt increases manifolds and agony rips me apart....silence of the night is punctuated by my muted uncontrollable sobs....a never ending charade it is...tears!tears!tears it is, that makes an outlet of escape....betrayal, misconceptions, desertion all find escape through tears...tears of pain....puffy eyes and soggy pillow sheets..yes these are tears of pain...pain that makes your heart burn with anguish,the numbness that spreads through your veins and the tears that washes all desolation away...

Night after night...i toss and turn....i bury my face into the softness of my pillow and in comfort of my bed....i let the darkness soothe my senses....i let the go of the bottled emotion within me....i allow the memories to resurface..and the pain,flow....then wave after wave....in torrents they come....coursing its way down my face....i clutch my sheets...and let it all go...i let the tears flow....images flash in my eye...words ring in my ears....heart wrenches a notch more...i cling to my sanity....i hold on to the hope...i cry silently...as the pain and hurt overpowers me.....in the darkness of the night my grief finds expression in the tears of pain!

In the light if the day...tears of pain masqueraded in smiles and good cheer...pain is forgotten even if momentarily in chores and errands....laughter drowns the cries within...but when the day runs its course....and the night sets in.....with people turning in...their crawl out from their hiding places...tears of pain...soon the sobs subside...and slumber looms ahead threateningly...tears dry leaving its soggy trails...as a new day dawns...pain lurks into the retreating shadows...as i let myself drift into that sweet haven of respite from this harsh harsh world !!

........Forever

You came in. I wiped off my tears. You saw it all. Still you remained unmoved.Tickets, luggage everything was in place.

With each step, my life was drifting away from me.

Your words flashed across my mind. Those poignant words……“You cannot see my tears. That does not mean I don’t ever cry.”

I turned back, fathomed the depth of your eyes and vowed to be yours…Forever.

Ways to Keep yourself Healthy

Teenagers: How to Stay Healthy

Will the habits I have now really make a difference when I'm older?

Yes, 65% of all deaths in adults are caused by heart disease, cancer and stroke. In many cases, these diseases were preventable. Many of the behaviors that cause these diseases begin at a young age. For example, if you use tobacco as a teenager, you're more likely to get heart disease, cancer or stroke when you're an adult.

What can I do now to keep myself healthy?

• Avoid using any type of tobacco product. Try not to breathe second hand cigarette smoke.
• Get regular exercise.
• Eat a healthy diet.
• Always use your seat belt.
• Don't drink and drive. Don't get into a car with a driver who has been drinking alcohol or using drugs.
• Wear protective headgear, such as motorcycle or bike helmets, when participating in sports.
• Never swim alone.
• Talk to your parents or your doctor if you're feeling really sad or if you're thinking about harming yourself.
• Avoid situations where violence or fighting may cause you to be physically injured.
• If you have sex, use condoms to avoid pregnancy and sexually transmitted diseases. (Remember, however, the "safest" sex is no sex.)
• See your doctor regularly.

What might my doctor do?

The doctor might do any of the following to help you stay healthy :

• Determine your risk for certain health problems.
• Measure your height, weight, cholesterol levels and blood pressure.
• Order tests to check your general health or to find certain diseases.
• Provide immunizations ("shots" or "vaccines") to reduce your risk of getting diseases such as mumps, tetanus and hepatitis.

At my age, what should I especially be concerned about?

Car accidents, unintentional physical injury, homicide and suicide are the top killers of teenagers and young adults. Cancer and heart disease can also affect you at this age. Unplanned pregnancy and sexually transmitted diseases (including HIV and AIDS) can cause you social and personal problems, in addition to harming your health.

Do young men have different health risks than young women?

Yes. Young men don't wear seat belts as often as young women do. They're also more likely to carry weapons, to get into physical fights, to use smokeless tobacco or marijuana, to drink alcohol heavily, and to have more sexual partners. On the other hand, young women have some special risks. They try to commit suicide more often and they try to lose weight in harmful ways more often than young men.

Should I talk to my doctor if I'm worried about my health or my body?

Yes. It's important to talk to your doctor if you have any concerns about your health or your body. Your doctor is there to help you.

Change is the Only Constant

'People change, and forget to tell.'

(This is not a cribbing post but an enlightened one, you may carry on reading!)

Change is the only constant. Weathers change, times change, situations change. Change is the law of nature. Normal is boring. Each one of us needs a change in the course of time. Then why are PEOPLE excepted to not change? They are a portion of this Universe which is meant to change.

The world is like that as they say. One fine day, you wake up and realize that people close to you have changed. They are not as they used to be. It hurts inside. Doesn't it? Is that because of the expectations you have out of them? Probably yes.

Everyday, we meet new people. Life goes on. Some people stay, some leave. Of those, we chose the people who should stay and who should leave. There are times, when people we want to stay, leave. Also, there are times, when people we wanted to leave, stay.

It a circle. its the same for others. Some people want us to stay and some want us to leave. We choose to leave some, we stay with others.

Before you tell someone that they have changed, for one second consider. Question yourself. Are you the same for them? Haven't you changed a bit?

Every one a justification for the change they have brought in themselves. But when it comes to others, it gets in-digestible. Why do we expect others to remain the same for us if we have changed ourselves to them?
Not fair.

When people change, they grow up. They outgrow somethings and develop other things.

You may be a part of their world and may not be. Just like, you leave people behind.

I am not perfect. I hurt people. People hurt me too. But I grow up. Everyone does grow up. This could hurt initially, but we become used to it eventually.

Let people change. It is always for good.

Smile and Move On.

Best regards,

About Farah Khan Ali ( MY IDOL )

Farah Khan Ali.....the name itself speaks too much...
She is a sister, daughter, wife, friend, mother, lover and the endless list goes on...

Well professionally she is a Jewellery Designer and a Gemologist. She is been such an inspirational friend specially for me and for millions of people. She has very innovative ideas. She is Sussanne's ( Hrithik Roshan's wife ) sister.


It was on 12th December 2009 that I made my twitter account and I followed her firstly. I just normally send her a tweet that " How r u dear ? " and then I went to her profile and saw that she was replying to her friends, so i tweeted once again to her " Plz rpl to me too m wtng :) ". After sometime I got a Direct Message from her saying " Hello Darling..welcome to the world of tweeting n I shall reply u as many times as i can but sometime it gets hectic. " And let me tell you she has approx. 31,000 followers till now and she never lets her followers down, she replies to each and every person, if she is busy she will DM you.


I was pleased to get a DM frm her. From this day onwards we were in regular contact. On 18th Dec. it was my b'day and I cudn't believe that she wished me and even she told all her followers to wish me. This was my first great day. Then we were always in regular contact with each other.


It was April 2010. Farah was been chosen as " Wills Lifestyle Twitter Face ". Her addiction to twitter had so great effect. The Wills Lifestyle shows were to begin from 24th Apr. - 30th Apr.'2010. On 23rd she had to announce the passes for the shows and I was the luckiest one as I was the first one to get the pass for the show. I was really excited to meet her. Finally it was 24th Apr. and my excitement was too much that I can't describe it in words. I firstly met one of my friend Paavani there. Then at about 2.30pm, I finally met Farah outside the venue as there were some security problems on the first day. It was unbelievable for me to meet such a sweet, caring friend of mine. We met for about half an hour, talked on various issues and finally had to bid goodbye to each other and she hugged me( while she hugged me i was about to faint lol...it was such an warm hug and i enjoyed it :p ) and while bidding goodbye to each other she said " I LOVE U TOO MUCH..YOU ARE A DOLL..JUST MAKE YOUR PARENTS PROUD ALWAYS AND U WOULD BE LOVED BY EVERYONE ". THESE LINES ARE ALWAYS MY INSPIRATION.

                                    This was my first meeting with her :)


As there were some issues on the first day, no shows were held. So I was the most luckiest, as I had an chance to meet her again for the second time. On 25th she called me and told me that u are invited tomorrow too. I was in tears, was so happy that i would be meeting my friend again..finally on 26th at 3pm I met her and met my friends Rajni and Ashish there too. Uff !! was so luckiest and the way she deals with thousands of people is simply amazing..hv no words again. She loves each and every tweeple of hers too much. And most importantly she remembers every one of us by our names. I was just shocked to see how sharp and long lasting her memory was !! And finally on 3rd may she started following me..i was too lucky to get all your love n hugs too :p .

                                                 My second meeting with her :)

Met my friends @Aashish_27, Farah, Me and my good friend @rajnisingh125


At last i would just say to all  my lovely friends that she is simply SUPERB and have no words to describe her..she has no attitude and such a down to Earth person. Love u Farah and " U ARE MY IDOL ". I am blessed to have u in my life...thank u Farah so mch for all this :)

U can always follow her on http://twitter.com/FarahKhanAli

Her website http://www.farahkhan.net/

Her friends club http://twitter.com/farahkhanalifc


Some of u might say this article is too long but let me tell u this is nothing for Farah. And due to bad server am not able to upload the pics...but you can see in my display picture in my twitter account. I promise would upload my pics soon. Thanx for having patience and reading it. And lastly thanx my friend Rajesh from my twitterworld for giving such an innovative idea for writing about Farah.

Love U darling...hope to meet u soon :) 

Struggle

You may see me struggle
but you wont see me fall.
Regardless if I'm weak or not I'm going to stand tall.
Everyone says life is easy
but truly living it is not.
times get hard,
people struggle
& constantly get put on the spot.
I'm going to wear the biggest smile
even though I want to cry.
I'm going to fight to live
even though I'm destined to die.
and even though it's hard & I may struggle through it all.
you see me struggle...you will NEVER see me fall.

Happy Mother's Day

Moms are the sweetest gift from Gods to us. There is no way we can ever really thank our mother for all she does for us nevertheless we must make it a habit to keep reminding ourselves of the various sacrifices she made while raising us. Mothers' Day is the best time to say in words how much we love and care for our mum. 

Mother's Day is special to all of us, isn't it? All of us look forward to this day to let our mummy dear know how special she is to us. But do you know just how this day came into existence; when was it first observed or who celebrated it first? If you don't, read on to know about the fabulous history of Mother's Day. You are sure to enjoy it.

The tradition of Mothers Day started with the ancient Greeks who celebrated their annual spring festival in honor of Rhea, the mother of many Gods and Goddesses in the Greek mythology. Ancient Romans too celebrated a spring festival by the name of Hilaria in honor of Cybele, a mother goddess, some 250 years before Christ was born.

Mother's Day is celebrated on second Sunday of May.The festival of Pâthâre Prabhu is celebrated on the same day only in Bombay and the Southern part of India . The Pathare prabhu caste always celebrates this holiday.It is based on a legend about a mother whose children kept dying after only one year of living and it has a very remote origin. Although it's also called "Mother's Day", it is unrelated to the modern celebration, which is copied from the US (second Sunday of May) and is celebrated in the whole country.

Here's a poem i wrote it a yr. back for her n thought to share it with all of u :)

A halo that reflects a life of
wisdom, kindness, and caring.
Eyes that sparkle with pride
and show how much she believes in you.
Shoulders that have been slept on
and wept on and
carried a world or two.
Arms that never run out of hugs.
Hands that know
just when to hold on
and when to let go.
A mind filled with amazing things,
from fairy tales to family tails
and long-ago stories of you.
A smile that can jump right into your heart
and warm you faster than hot chocolate.
A heart of gold
that holds more love
than you can possibly imagine. 

I love u mom :) 

Now have no more words to express my love but now my eyes are filled completely with the tears of joy that how lucky I am to have a great mummy :)

"My mom is a neverending song in my heart of comfort, happiness, and being.  I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune." - Geetanjali Juneja